worship for your day

I was just introduced to Kim Walker Smith and been so blessed. She has an anointing and true gift from God. My mentor shared this CD with me a few weeks ago and it plays all day.

Chris and I were struggling with Elaina one night and helping her get to sleep. Chris and I were a little frustrated with each other and the song 'the king is here' was on. I kept hearing the lyrics throughout our ordeal and it was a neat reminder that God was here, he would help us and more importantly, I wanted to honor Chris and work as a team to bring God glory in our parenting and marriage.

Be blessed!


The King is here, the King is here
You're alive inside of me
The King is here, the King is here
Love will never ever leave

We worship and we praise
We lift Your holy name
We rejoice for our King is here
We're living to proclaim
You've opened Heaven's gates
We rejoice for our King is here

You are here, You are here
You come in power and majesty
God, You are here, You are here
Every heart has been set free....

City of Gods Delight

Long ago (4 years ago) Chris and I spent time praying over our family and what God may have as our family scripture. We felt God remding us, specifically me that our marriage and our new famliy was just that, new! God was pleased with us and that we could step into a new life, new love and new family, through marriage. I struggled with feelings that I may be carrying over fears from my family (behaviors, ideas, depression, the list goes on) in my new marraige if I was not intentional about starting new.

The scripture we had been 'given' as our family verse was Pslam 62:4: Never again will you be called "The Forsaken City" or "The Desolate Land." Your new name will be "The City of God's Delight" and "The Bride of God," for the LORD delights in you and will claim you as his bride.

As we have been married I have continually felt and seen God's delight over us. I came from some desolate places in my family growing up. I have been reminded many times that God is making me, through my marriage to Chris and our family, new.

Interestingly enough, Paris, where we got pregnant with Roo is often called La Ville-Lumiére: The City of Light- I never knew this till now. We picked E's name bc of the meaning: light & bc it was French. God is sneaky, isnt he. Light is weaved through our story.

He even weaved our family verse into our child. I imagine him smiling right now. I truly believe he is happy with me, pleased with me. Something I didnt always feel (growing up) from my earthly father.

Through his son, Jesus, my marriage to Chris and now my sweet, Heart, I am seeing even more of God's delight and joy over me.

1 year

I am honestly so emotional today. What mother wouldnt be? My baby is one!

This past year had too many emotions to name and so many memories that instagram will never capture.

I am thankful for many sleepless nights, boogie noses and the chance to hold my baby every day.

We are blessed.

Today I think about the years to come. The responsiblity that God has given me and Chris and what A HUGE gift E is to us.

I am tearful because today I look at myself and think how much better I need to be. How much I need to grow. I feel so inadequate. I feel so unprepared for the road ahead.

I felt this way one year ago as I held a 7 hour old baby- but something about that time seemed easier.
I needed to feed her, I needed to change her diaper and make sure she was warm. Her character was not really something I was concerned with at a few hours old.

I have to live a life that reflect strong moral character, love for God and kindness to others (the list goes on as I am sure you know!). The fruits of the spirit. YIKES!

I feel so inadequate.

Today I just need Jesus and his loving kidness to wash over me and remind me that just like I will guide E, God will guide me. Funny how what I feel for Elaina, God feels for me, except a MILLIONS times more.

Because of Jesus I am off the hook. I will choose to seek God on how to raise E. I pray his grace covers all my mistakes and that through our love for her, she chooses him. This next year seems more important than the last, spiritually.

I know one proactive thing I can do for both she and I: PRAY! All we can do is pray. Pray circle around our babies all day, all night. Its about leaning in. Getting closer. Going deeper.

I leave myself (and you) with this quote:
Prayer turns ordinary parents into prophets who shape the desinies of their children, grandchildren and every generation that follows ~Mark Batterson