Emotional Highjacking: wrote this a week ago..why didnt it post?

Today my sister sent me an article from The Blaze. The article spoke about defense contractors and their compliance with the administration to fore go the Worker Adjustment and Retraining Notification Act (WARN); contractors are required to give workers a 60 day notice if they are about to be laid off. This request was made because many lay-offs are planned for January 2013, and 60 days previous, would be days before the election. My husbands company, I read in the article, complied.  They essentially have blackmailed these companies,offering to pay their legal fees if they wait till January to do lay offs.

My emotions went hay-wire. Having a 5 month old, just having gone under contract for a house...MY HUSBAND CANT LOSE HIS JOB!!

I drove home crying, after holding my new nephew...seeing the promise of new life in his little eyes. How could I let my joy be stolen. When I have the God I have, when I know the abounding love he has for me, for Chris and for E.

I was gently fiercely shaken to my core when I finally realize that I needed God more than I did yesterday. I think at times I am close and living in his promises and then days like yesterday remind me, I NEED MORE!

I need more Communion, more companionship, more love, more intimacy with God. I can always go deeper, I can always enter new levels of relationship with God. By his power, I can be more holy, more at peace, more in tune with the  kingdom and the King!

My hope and prayer for today is that I make choices that allow me to live, moment by moment in the presence. Not just at certain times of the day; reading my bible, listening to music, or praying, but every moment letting the Spirit guide my heart, thoughts and actions. Sanctification!

Saying NO! to TV, NO! to articles that I know will bring fear. At this time in my life, I am not healthy enough to fight the war. I need to get stronger.

I'm working on being stronger. One of my major areas for growth is comparison.

I was reading that night in John about Peter. In John 21:21 it reads....
"When Peter saw him (John, the disciple whom Jesus loved), he asked 'Lord, what about him'? Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me."

At times I want to know my future, I want to know what God has planned for my extended families future, I spend too much time comparing. This passage reminds me that I need to do Gods will for my life, stop comparing. I need to spend more time focusing on my calling, not worrying about others. I need to put my energies into following Him, and his call for me!

 If I am following God, he will equip me for whatever is to come. Good or bad. Easy or tough. His glory is at stake.

"You are my called ones, you have tough futures ahead of you, but the glory God will gain will be immeasurable.  Love is the only motivation that can afford this kind of cost. I'm a carpenter, custom blue prints are my specialty. Gods glory is my goal, fill your cisterns to the brim & follow me!"

~Beth Moore