Yours

Easter Day

There are moments that are sobering for me as a wife & mother. Last night as I was washing dishes Chris shared about a friend we knew from college who just had their 20 week ultrasound. They found out during their appointment that their daughter has Anencephaly, her brain has not formed fulled. Chris shared a post they wrote about how they are already seeing their precious daughter change lives and bring joy. Even in the midst of such heart break & devastation.

I continued washing dishes. Praying.

As I washed,God clearly asked me some questions. ' Do you surrender to the life I have for Elaina? Do you give all her days to me; even if that is a few or  many? Even when you dont know the plans I have for her!?'

Playing with my chickens

I want in my deepest places to be part of the life God has called Elaina to. Even if we don't know what that looks like. Sickness, health, life, death, joy, pain, the list  goes on.

This family I know, is pressing into Jesus and allowing their daughters life to be what God wants it to be; even if that's only 9 months in the warmth of her mama's belly. They were told she would only survive a few hours once she was born. 

I have tears as I write this because I am so blessed, so honored, to have a healthy little girl. God has entrusted me and I think this may be the first time I have actually said out loud, and with my heart, Jesus she is yours.

May I continue to say this everyday.